flwyd: (playa surface)
Between a sudden December in Hawaii, a two-week road trip for the eclipse, and two weeks lobbying about climate change and running around the hills of West Virginia, I used up all my vacation this year and could not go to Burning Man. One consequence of this decision is that this has been probably my most laid-back non-pandemic August since 2007. "I think I'm going to screw around on the Internet this evening" feels almost transgressive when I'm used to spending a week and a half between Dragonfest and Burning Man working on a long list of things that need to be packed, and another long list of things that need to be found and then packed. (Last year I realized I had no almost no unaccounted weekends for four months.)

After my first burn in 2004 I said "That was fun, but I don't know if I'll do it every year. But I'm going to make sure that if I don't go to Burning Man, I'll do something else cool instead." Usually the other-cool thing has been on or around the same week (visiting Iceland, getting married, taking photos of DNC protests, going to Norway…), so it's extra weird having already done the cool thing, and having burn week as just an ordinary time. I played a great softball game on Tuesday, and got a blinky lights, bicycles, costumes, and electronic music experience tonight with Boulder's Happy Thursday cruiser ride.

It's been so low-key that I didn't decide what I'm doing Labor Day weekend until a couple days ago. For months I'd been considering watching a different giant wooden man get set on fire, with Zozobra marking his hundredth anniversary in Santa Fe. I wasn't excited about how the logistics were looking, and have some things going on next week that would be awkward if I was fighting COVID after hanging out with 40,000 people.

This means instead I get to spend Saturday sitting on the Gilpin/Clear Creek county line so I can double my fake Internet points for the Colorado QSO Party, a ham radio event where Colorado stations try to contact other counties plus other states and outside hams try to contact as many Colorado counties and stations as they can. I got over 40,000 points by operating from a triple-county line in West Virginia in June; I'll see if I can beat that with more power and more operating time on just a double-line. In 2021 I hung out in the NCAR parking lot and then went for a hike with my handheld and later received a certificate for first place in the Single-operator portable QRP power category with a whopping score of 36. With high enough cardinality, everyone can be a winner.

I've heard that this year's Burning Man weather has been quite pleasant, after last year's adventure with rain and mud and 2022's excessive heat and dust storms. I would've been bummed to miss the paradise built in mud last year, but I'm feeling pretty okay with missing out this year. And as we say, next year was better.
flwyd: (playa surface)
A week before the gates opened to the public, Burning Man got hit with the tail end of a hurricane. At an event famous for harsh heat and dust, even a little rain can be a big problem. Black Rock City is built on top of an ancient lakebed, and when it rains the whole thing turns into remarkably sticky mud. All driving gets shut down, since vehicles are likely to get stuck and until they do they tear up the playa surface, making it obnoxiously bumpy once it dries out. Build week came to a halt for a couple days and from what I hear everyone hung out in camp, swapped stories, and posted amusing photos to the Internet.

When I drove down Gate Road on Thursday before the event, the ride was amazingly smooth. Once wet playa dust dries, it stays firm for many days. Gate Road, thanks to thousands of vehicles traversing a path only about a hundred feet wide, is normally a bumpy and dusty adventure; the dust from Gate Road often ends up in whiteouts that can blanket the city. So as I calmly rode on what felt almost like pavement and didn't see a speck of dust kicked up in the air, I knew it was going to be a great week for biking around Burning Man. I camp at 3:00 and C, and am intimately familiar with the 3:00 Keyhole being one of the bumpiest places on Playa. After we got the tent set up on Thursday night I biked over to Ranger HQ to pick up a radio, partly so I could bask in the wonders of a perfectly flat keyhole on the way there and back.

The first couple days were pretty much perfect temperature. I spent Friday naked but not sweating, setting up camp. At night I could continue being naked without shivering as I finished unloading the truck and headed to the portos. Monday got up to 99°F which made for a Mentor shift where we encouraged the Alphas to "ranger a lot of shade," but it wasn't nearly as oppressive as the 110° days from 2022. Tuesday the weather was pleasant again and my friend and I adventured around the city. Wednesday once again had perfect weather and I spent the day bicycling around art and tracking down delicious beverages. It was midweek and I could ride practically anywhere without holding the handlebars. Thursday brought a bit of a breeze, but remained a pretty good day for adventure. I was having such a great time on two wheels that I picked up an unscheduled Rapid Night Response ride-along shift, since Friday's forecast had a chance of rain. Last year I happened to pick the night of the four-hour high-winds whiteout for my ride-along shift, and I wanted to get one good-biking shift in, since there was rain in the forecast for Friday.

Friday morning a campmate downplayed the rain forecast. "Less than a quarter inch over the course of a day means it'll mostly evaporate when it hits the ground and won't be a big problem." I biked across the city for my shift in the ESD Dispatch building at noon. While inside the box strong winds came in, the sky grew dark, and it started raining. Hard. For several hours. A no-driving order was quickly instituted. Ambulences were spinning their wheels and medical response was limited to major issues only. A worrying call came in and the "Quick Response Vehicle" crew was dispatched on foot, walking slowly through the mud that sticks to your shoes and then sticks to itself, building "playa platforms."

After my shift ended at 6pm it was still raining and there was no way my bike was going to carry me anywhere, so I started a long and cold walk back across the city. I stopped to hold a perimeter around an incident and was thankfully gifted a trash bag I could wear as a rain coat. As darkness set in I trudged an hour back across the city, shaking mud from my shoes every few minutes. I discovered that walking through a pool of standing water was much smoother than stepping on uncovered mud. The next day I trudged back across the city for another hour; this time wearing my Keen water shoes that I expected to handle the mud a bit better. They too were a sticky mud magnet, with the extra downside that my foot could pull right out if the mud got a good enough grip. The barefoot, the socks-over-shoes, and the plastic-bags-and-duct-tape crowds were the winners of walking.

The media got wind of the shelter in place order and had a general freak out. People were calling Washoe County to find out if their friends and family were okay. Washoe called the emergency dispatch center on playa and asked if they could forward questions to us. "Not at all" said the supervisor; we have no more information about your kid's status than you do. The world freaked out, imagining a city of 70,000 burners running out of food and water, trapped in the desert. Meanwhile, the people of Black Rock City checked on their neighbors, joined the dance party across the street, and made large penis sculptures out of mud. Other fun activities included making fun of people who tried to drive out and got stuck in the mud. "If you try to drive out now, there's a good chance you'll get stuck, and you'll be last in the queue to get rescued when things dry out." I've heard that about 100 people walked to the county road (through a few miles of slippery mud) and at least 300 cars got stuck on Gate Road. But the only reason to leave the city was commitments elsewhere in Reality Camp. Pretty much everyone who stayed put had a fantastic time. The city was calmer, slower, contemplative. Gone were the nights of LED-draped eBikes speeding past while a giant art car lumbers past, blaring electronic music. Saturday, normally the night when the Man burns in a large and cacophonous ritual, everyone was left to their own devices. I hung out by the burn barrel, scraping mud off my shoes and enjoying the hoppin' dance tunes of the party across the street. People built tiny effigies, burning them atop their burn barrel, next to the drying mud dick sculptures. People took slow walks around the neighborhood and met new people, wondering if this was what Burning Man was like in the '90s. We were getting a little worried about the portos filling up, and there was a minute-long cheer when the pumper truck drove by after a couple days, but otherwise everyone was in excellent spirits. I spent Sunday afternoon on a walking tour of the inner playa art; a new experience for me since I'm usually circling sculptures a few time on a bike before riding of. On foot you've always got time to let the art sink in.

The stark contrast between the external media narrative of chaos and panic and the on-the-ground experience within the "disaster area," with people helping their neighbors and feeling a sense of euphoric connection, is a great example of the pattern described in A Paradise Built in Hell by Rebecca Solnit. "Elite panic" is the phrase she used to describe the reaction of the media and government to a disaster situation, and those authority figures tend to assume the worst; that people won't be able to take care of themselves. But Burners have been practicing disaster areas for more than two decades. The spontaneous creation of community, the generous gifting of food, clothes, and other resources that Solnit describes in historic disasters are explicit values in the Burner community. We didn't so much spontaneously create community in response to a natural disaster as the sudden rain came to the spontaneous community we've been creating and disassembling every year.

By Monday everything was drying out. People packed up their camps, watched a two-day-delayed Man burn, and drove out in an orderly exodus. The Tuesday Temple burn felt a bit odd with so many folks gone and operations having already shifted to post-event mode, but it still felt like the somber yet joyous release of the shared space of hopes and fears, this time with an extra aura of awareness of the amazing experience we'd all shared.
flwyd: (playa surface)
A friend emailed me on Saturday and said "Sad news, I got fired this week."
On Sunday I ran into them at the store while I was getting some Burning Man supplies. "Hey, I got your email. Sorry to hear that. Since you're now funemployed, do you want to go to Burning Man?" "I don't think it's my thing." "Well, it might or might not be your thing. Go search the Internet for Burning Man and let me know in a couple days."

Monday I got an email. They're in for the adventure. "Come over to my house this evening. You can ask questions and we can talk logistics." And also some good ramen and Palisade peaches on us.
I emailed three people who'd posted about extra tickets on various lists. All three responded within two hours "Yup, still have tickets."

If your life situation allows you to suddenly decide that this is the year to go to Burning Man, I assure you that tickets are in plentiful supply right now. Tickets usually show up a week or two before the event as people realize they can't go, but this year seems to have an extra large glut.

Today a coworker asked me how packing was going. "I just started packing a second human."
flwyd: (spiral staircase to heaven)
Some time in May I looked at my calendar and realized that every weekend in June was spoken for, and that July and August were looking pretty tight. This led to yet another summer where most of my free time has been spent either having fun away from home or preparing for said fun.

The first weekend in June was Untamed a pagan gathering in its second year, led by some of the core people from the now defunct Beltania event. It featured workshops, rituals, craft vendors, neo-highland games, a day of music performances, and drum circles. And rain. Lots of rain. It's been a wet year in Colorado, so I was expecting a wet and chilly event, and it definitely delivered. I wound up sleeping in tights plus two pairs of pajama pants, hiking socks under mucklucks, a T-shirt under a long-sleeve shirt under a sweat shirt, and a winter hat. I think the cold and damp helped the drum circles find some really neat rhythms and reflective grooves, and everyone had the good sense to bring drums that wouldn't detune too bad in the damp air. There was also a ham radio Parks on the Air event that weekend, and since the festival property is right next to the Pike National Forest I hung a wire antenna in the trees on the other side of the fence and made some contacts while keeping dry in my tent. Unfortunately, after I'd made a bunch of contacts around the 20 meter band and started to call for people to contact me ("calling CQ") my high-end radio from the early 1990s suddenly got stuck in transmit mode and I noticed a distinct electronics smell. The problem persisted when testing at home where it was warm and dry, so I've got a circuit board investigation project to do when I get a free weekend. Which will maybe be October? November. Sheesh. At least the maker space at my office should be back up and running by then.

As soon as I got home I had to unpack the truck, start packing suit cases, and plan two lobby meetings for CCL's return to Capitol Hill. Kelly and I flew out Friday and stayed with a friend's parents in northern Virginia. Spending three days at an in person conference is so much more invigorating than a day and a half of a virtual conference via Zoom has been. And I love "magical hallway conversations" that emerge; I ran into people from the Before Times that I didn't even know would be there, had some great conversations with folks I knew I'd find. Even the thirty second connections with folks are so much better than a Zoom breakout room. I also took advantage of the conference hotel's location next to Rock Creek Park to do a Parks on the Air activation with a small radio and portable antenna I brought. Band conditions were challenging and it's hard to get a lot of power from a small radio but I managed to secure enough contacts for the activation to count. While I was at the conference on Saturday, Kelly went to DC Pride and got into a bit of good trouble, engaging in "lawful annoying" peacockery to establish a perimeter in front of the homophobic street preacher who probably makes money suing people who punch him for being an obnoxious jerk.

Our day lobbying Congress was great. In the past we've been very focused on putting a price on carbon emissions. This is the most effective available solution to fighting climate change, but it's a topic that has trouble gaining traction in some Congressional offices due to their philosophical outlook or the political climate in their district. This year we had carbon pricing and clean energy permitting reform as dual focuses with the meeting lead and member liaison choosing the topic that's the best fit for the office. This seemed to work quite well; we had some great conversations with offices where we've previously received a tepid response, and a lot of members were quite excited to see us. I was even involved in literal magical hallway discussion: a member was in a committee meeting all day, but really wanted to meet with CCL, so her staffers took us down the elevator and around the building where we had a ten minute conversation on a whole bunch of topics before their scheduler dragged them back in to mark up a bill. I also had the honor of leading a half-hour face-to-face meeting with Senator Hickenlooper who's been a big supporter of both carbon pricing and clean energy permitting reform.

We took advantage of the CO2 expenditure of flying to Washington DC to take a small vacation around the Chesapeake Bay region. Our first leg took us to Williamsburg Virgina by way of the Edgar Allen Poe Museum in Richmond, in part so we could pet the resident black cats. We checked into a B&B where all the rooms were themed after a U.S. president, ate some amazingly delicious mussels steamed in a chorizo sauce, walked down Colonial Williamsburg's Duke of Gloucester Street at sunset (good historic architecture vibes, cool fireflies, and reduced chaotic energy from tourist hordes). The next day we visited both Jamestown historic sites. The State of Virginia and the National Park Service both run a site focused on the first English settlement in the U.S. and its interactions with the native people. The State-run one is significantly more tourist-oriented, featuring people in period dress engaging in 17th Century crafts, recreated sailing ships (there was much quiet singing of I'm On A Boat"), and a folk park style buildings recreating Powhatan buildings and the Jamestown Fort. The National Park version is more of an archaeological site than a folk park, though it does have a working recreation of the Jamestown glassblowing site. The site is also quieter, with more of a chance to connect with the landscape and the James River, giving something of a sense of how the settlers and Indians might have experienced the place. (For one, the English woolen clothing must've been incredibly uncomfortable in June.) We finished the evening with another Parks on the Air activation from a small strip of sand at the edge of James Island. I was able to contact Nova Scotia, New Brunswick, and attracted a hunter from Spain which felt pretty good for a 15 watt radio.

After a fun crossing of the Chesapeake Bay bridge and tunnel we spent the weekend in Maryland's eastern shore. The book themed B&B with a charming English hostess was much more our style. We'd hoped to take a canoe around Janes Island but the wind speed would've made paddling too difficult so we hung out at a picnic table coloring and playing ham radio. Band conditions were awful due to a geomagnetic storms, so getting the needed ten contacts for an activation took two hours. We then enjoyed a delicious crab cake lunch and then listened to Seldom Scene at the Crisfield Bluegrass Festival we didn't know was happening.

On the way back to NoVa we visited the Harriet Tubman Museum, a fairly new state park and national monument that does a really good job sharing and contextualizing Harriet Tubman's life and slavery in the mid-19th Century. Throughout the trip I was impressed with the care taken by museum curators to feature the slavery and Indian parts of the stories in meaningful ways, far beyond a token land acknowledgment.

The fourth weekend of June was ARRL Field Day when ham radio clubs across North America set up a temporary station and fill the airwaves with contacts. I've been in California for the last two Field Days, so I was excited to be able to check out the great setup the Boulder Amateur Radio Club does at Betasso park west of Boulder. I'd intended to set up a tent and operate into the late shift of this 24-hour event, but I realized that the generator would make falling asleep quite challenging and opted to get one Saturday night of the month in my regular bed. Sunday was spent recovering from the month that was, and mowing the grass that had been going bonkers from all the rain this year.

The Fourth of July long weekend brought Dead and Company to Folsom Field on their final tour. The shows were sold out or close to it, but I was able to find some spots with enough room to dance a bit. There were some really good performances, including some stellar drums & space, but I was a little disappointed with the set list. I think they only played two songs that premiered after 1979 (Standing on the Moon and So Many Roads). I knew they weren't likely to play any Pigpen or Brent Mydland songs, but it would've been great to hear something from the '80s like Tons of Steel or Throwing Stones or bring out a song that left the repertoire after the '60s like Viola Lee Blues. We also got a cat on July 1st (we'd been targeting this month for cat adoption for quite some time), so all my non-Dead energy for the weekend went into making the house safe and comfortable for a feline.

I spent the next couple unstructured weekends preparing for Burning Man. Given the amazing heat last year and the likelihood of wild and wacky weather from El Niño this year, I want to up my shade game so I have a hope of sleeping a little longer. I decided to drape a large piece of aluminet over two military surplus camo net poles, forming something of an A-frame. My ability to visualize objects and then make that imagined plan meet reality isn't one of my strong suits, so hopefully a test run of this shade structure will go well at Dragonfest (where shade that lets rain in isn't a huge win, but when else am I going to have time to try it?). I spent the final July weekend at a Ranger training campout near Ward. This was great fun, including the drinking-and-joking-around-the-campfire session, but its late season timing means I've got one less Burning Man prep weekend, and don't get a full weekend to prep for Dragonfest. Fortunately "camping in Colorado with a bunch of Pagans" is packing I can do without too much thought. I'm quite glad I decided not to go to the Ranger command team training the previous weekend, otherwise I'd have all the info for Burning Man and none of the actual necessary stuff.

August's weekend lineup features Dragonfest, then Pack For Burning Man Weekend, then Burning Man Opening Weekend, then Man Burn Weekend, then Get Home, Unpack, And Fall Asleep Weekend. That's usually followed by Clean The Dust Off All Your Stuff and then, wouldn't you know it, it's autumn equinox and time to do some kind of anniversary/birthday weekend getaway.

Yeesh. Maybe one of these years I'll spend a summer just hanging out.
flwyd: XKCD comic "The Omnitaur", a creature made from parts of fish, lion, snake, shark, bull, dragon, horse, leopard, ram, human, and bird (xkcd omnitaur)
One of the few required bits of gear for a Black Rock Ranger is a notebook and a pencil. While going through my Ranger vest I found a notebook dating back to my first year rangering. In addition to details of lost children, passwords to computers that were only up for two weeks, 007 investigation notes, and the locations of camps I want to visit when I get off shift were some lovely nuggets of wisdom and cleverness.

Awesometer: device for measuring awesomeness.
Talk about what you know, demonstrate who you are.
Cerboros: the three-headed wolf biting its three tails.
Wee Heavy Machinery.
flwyd: (Trevor shadow self portrait)
For many years I've assumed that when I turned 42 I would throw a big party, invite a bunch of hoopy froods, and see if everyone knew where their towel was. As it turned out this week, I had about 2000 people at my birthday party, I didn't have to plan the event, and I didn't see many towels.

Element 11 is a long-standing regional Burning Man event in the Utah desert. It's normally held in July or June, which tend to be prime busy-in-Colorado times, particularly since Apogaea—Colorado's regional burn—is the second weekend of June. This year the organizers moved Element 11 to the last weekend of September, maximizing the amount of planning time in a year of chaos, minimizing the number of excuses for people to not be fully vaccinated, and balancing days which aren't too hot with nights that aren't too cold. Since Burning Man itself was cancelled and I didn't want to go to Plan B/Renegade Burn, I figured I'd have plenty of spoons for a regional in another state. Plus, I didn't have to plan a complicated themed birthday party.

It felt really good to be able to wander around, meet strangers, give hugs, dance to big sound, and share food. So far, it seems the policy of "proof of vaccination or a recent negative COVID test" was successful as I haven't heard that there was any COVID spread at the event. The fact that almost everything was outside certainly helped. I've now got a bit of a scratchy throat and some sore body parts, but my home-COVID test was negative, so I think this is just my immune system having forgotten how to deal with other people's garden variety germs, plus a depleted sleep schedule. I feel significantly less lousy than I did after getting back from a summer road trip.

The month leading up to the event was pretty jam-packed. I spent a bunch of time researching and ordering components for a solar and battery system so that Kelly could sleep with a CPAP, but I didn't give myself enough lead time and the project failed to come together before the trip, culminating in a comedy of errors including a brand new multimeter that needed aluminum foil shoved in the battery compartment in order to operate. Fortunately I've now got months to get things right and up my electrical game before our next camping adventure.

In addition to wrangling electrical components I spent a lot of time in the last month and a half playing with Colorado Redistricting Commission maps. The state has a new citizen-focused redistricting process, ideally reducing the political maneuvering involved, and anyone could submit their own maps and comments. I'm disappointed the commission and staff didn't follow my advice to (a) split census blocks in more natural ways so that neighbors stay in the same district and (b) allow slight variance (order of hundreds) in district size, following the "must be justified" portion of the law. Overall, though, the process seemed to work really well, and almost everyone at the hearings I attended was polite and on-topic, a rarity in the political world these days. There were a lot of "We don't want to be in a district with those people" comments, which make me sad as a collaborationist, but are understandable given the trend in the last half century for people to self-segregate politically.

I also spent a bunch of energy the weekend before Element 11 first picking apples and then helping press them into cider. We ended up with way more fruit than we could process and at the end of the day had more liquid than anyone could take away, particularly when the cooling system failed a few days later. I've got a cider brewing with wine yeast and a cyser (honey + apples) brewing with ale yeast; I'm hoping these turn out better than my last round of cyser which—three years later—still has a harsh flavor. This was a total blast, but cut way down on event packing and prep time.
flwyd: (playa surface)
It takes me a long time to recover from Burning Man.

By the first day I'm all clean and my clothes are in the wash. So far so good.

Then I've gotta catch up on sleep. This year, I'd pretty much gotten reestablished on sleep and then went to see Buckethead at the Fox. This started at 9pm on a Wednesday night for some reason. And I decided to order a sandwich after the show, so by the time I was done eating that it was like 1:45. Buckethead was totally worth the late night; the cheap middle eastern food wasn't. Then the next night I hung out playing pinball at Press Play after a great Ignite Boulder and went to bed around 1, so I was back in sleep jail. And yet when I'd go to bed on time this week I had trouble falling asleep or I'd wake up in the middle of the night for no good reason, so I'm back to a five hour or so deficit. October better be a good sleep month.

In parallel with sleep is "Clean all the dust off my crap." I hosed down a bunch of stuff in the back yard on the 17th. I also set up our big canvas tent and beat it with a broom. Hosing the tent down last year required a lot of water-removal from the floor, so I figured I'd let it air out and whack some dust off for a while. Due to my week of late night fun events, the tent was still up a week later. And then it got cloudy for a week straight and started raining for several days. If I hadn't taken advantage of a quick dry spell on Tuesday morning the tent would still be in the back yard, two weeks later. It made it as far as a pile in the sunroom, hopefully not folded in a mildew-inducing way. Hopefully it'll be sunny tomorrow so I can shake it out and fold it properly. I also realized I forgot a to add a couple items to the initial hose-off, so I need to do something about my sleeping bag. I've never had tent and bedding care get pushed all the way out until October.

Then there's the "Pack up all the Burning Man stuff, and while you're at it, pack up the summer-only stuff" stage. Last year I didn't really finish this step, so Playa packing this August involved finding some stuff in the pile on my office floor that I didn't have enough calories to organize in the fall or winter of 2016. I haven't really started on this effort yet, but I need to do a better job than last year and add a general office organization step, since even I'm noticing it's a mess.

And of course there's the "Send a bunch of emails and document what worked and what needs improvement" season that just wrapped up for the Rangers. And September also had two "Help my wife shop for a car rather than dealing with Burning Man crap" days. And today was "The house is clean enough, have folks over for games" day. And tomorrow's tent work will be followed by climate tour organizing and a visit to eTown. We've also had a lot of bountiful but neglected plants in our garden, so I should probably do something about those, too.

This is how a two week vacation turns into two months of work. Good thing Burners embrace absurdity.
flwyd: (tell tale heart)
Be Love and a colorful umbrella
The spiritual heart of Burning Man is the Temple, a beautiful, intricate wood structure. It serves as a blank canvas for the joys and sorrows, hopes and despairs, intention and letting go for the city. After three weeks in construction and a week in communal expression the Temple, along with all its messages and offerings, is burned to the ground as thousands watch in a circle of quiet reflection.

For the last year or so, my girlfriend Kelly has frequently asked if I want to marry her. It became something of a game: "Will you marry me?" "Not right now, I'm going to bed." "Will you marry me now?" "No, there's a cat on my lap." Kelly has played along, but I sensed she was getting annoyed by my non-answers.

On Tuesday of Burning Man, Kelly (aka Oasis) and I went on an art tour adventure in the outer playa, with the temple our final goal, hoping to leave offerings to Margot Adler and Robin Williams, two wonderful spirits the world lost this summer. But with construction delays from the August rains, it was not yet open to visitors.

On Wednesday morning, Kelly had a shift scheduled to give manicures to volunteer Rangers, a great way to keep her hands moisturized in the desert. I slipped away to the Temple with something of a plan. I found a good place for my photos of Margot Adler and Robin Williams and wrote Margot a farewell. I then walked around the inner sanctuary and the outer wall, searching for a blank slate that felt right: right shape, right position, right surrounding energy. I found it in a pair of wooden plates at eye level just north of the west door. After a lot of thought and grounding, I took out a sharpie and wrote on the left piece
Kelly, my love, my oasis,
will you marry me now?
Yours forever, Trevor 石胡子
and on the right wrote
Kelly's response? _________
________________________
I cried and smiled and then headed back to camp to await the moment of unveiling.

After a hot afternoon in the shade at Ranger Outpost Berlin I eagerly invited Kelly to ride out to visit the Temple in the sunset light. After five days of the environmental stress that makes Burning Man what it is, we were having trouble communicating when we arrived. I could tell she was stressed; my response was to ask lots of questions about what she wanted to do which just led to more annoyance. To ground and prepare ourselves, we walked a clockwise circle around the outer wall, setting a spontaneous intention to each cardinal direction. We then entered the southern gate and turned to face the inside of the outer wall. The first message we saw was someone else proposing marriage. "Will you marry me now," Kelly asked. "Not… right this minute," I replied. She grumped a bit while I kept a poker face. We continued a counterclockwise walk; I placed a hand on her back because I could sense her energy was still off kilter and I wanted to pass on some calm.

On the east side we saw a photo someone else had left in honor of Robin Williams. Kelly posted her photo of Robin and wrote him a message. As we continued along the north wall I realized there was a kink in my plan: she would see my Robin Williams photos before my proposal and I'd have to think of an excuse. She was angry when she spotted it, upset that I didn't wait to enter the Temple together with her. She continued walking along the west wall, a storm of emotion brewing. As we approached the gate, I placed my hand on her back and gently guided her to turn to the right. As she read the words I wrote, the bundle of tired and grumpy and upset melted into a great big kiss and embrace. I offered her a choice of sharpie colors to fill in her response. "Hell yes!" she wrote and then appended "– Dr. Stone." She's coveted my last name for a while.

With a chaotic summer, I hadn't had a chance to be a ring-seeker. I was also hesitant to buy an engagement ring that Kelly hadn't approved: what would be more awkward than a marriage proposal with an ugly ring as the centerpiece? In place of a circle of metal I brought a small bag of Mayan bracelets from a craft cooperative in Zunil, Guatemala. She selected one for me to tie around her wrist and I picked one for her to encircle mine. We kissed and hugged and cried and laughed and hugged some more and took photos and talked about our love for each other.


Took photos and kissed )

After we celebrated our moment in the west we saw a group of Rangers and artists from Element 11, Utah's regional event, carrying a banner honoring the man who ended his life in the flames of their effigy this July. We stepped into the central pyramid and the honor guard made their way to the west, parting the crowd between Kelly and me. We helped hold space as our comrades marked the tragic loss of a community member. Quick emotional transitions from fighting to uneasy to joyous to sorrowful: this compression of intense feeling is why Burning Man holds such a strong draw. We are fortunate that we could share this vulnerability with each other and we had a fantastic community to support and celebrate our choice.

On Sunday the Temple burned hot, serene in the crowded silence. The bones of the structure held strong as the details fell away and then the core collapsed together in a beautiful spiral a fire dance I've never seen before. The pillar with our proposal was one of the last parts to burn, an auspicious sign for a strong union.

Post Script: So… wedding? We're brainstorming ideas for our wedding in 2015. For family scheduling reasons, Memorial Day weekend is attractive, though no firm plans have yet been made. We're thinking about holding a variety show so our friends can help us celebrate through their many talents. We're also talking about making it a multi-day event so guests can get to know each other and enjoy the Colorado mountains in summer. We may also perform a marriage ritual at Dragonfest in August and we're digging through mythic sources in search of a good wedding story to play with.
flwyd: (drum circle w/ fire)
This past weekend, a man ran into an effigy burn and died, apparently as a premeditated suicide. This occurred at Element 11, a regional Burning Man event in the Utah desert. The Utah Burner community and others who attended the event are doing some serious processing and supporting this week and there's a lot of discussion happening in the broader Burning Man community. On my favorite mailing list, someone asked Do we know why people run into fire? I don't know any particulars about why this particular human ran into this particular fire, but I had a lot of thoughts about humans and our general relationship to fire.

There's a lot of symbolism and human cultural context wrapped up in fire. It's long been an element of mystery, harder to predict and control than air, earth, and water. We are often drawn to what we don't understand. Fortunately the discomfort of a fire's heat usually keeps us from playing too closely with fire, though many a young child has received a direct lesson as a result of their curiosity. Many people at Burner events cultivate a state of childlike wonder and, at times, lack of awareness of personal safety.

One of my favorite quotes about religion goes:
There are three ways of knowing a thing. Take for instance a flame. One can be told of the flame, one can see the flame with his own eyes, and finally one can reach out and be burned by it. In this way, we Sufis seek to be burned by God.
Fire and community are intertwined; it's a big part of why Burning Man works. From burn barrels to camp fires to bonfires, humans are drawn to the warmth and the light. Encircling a fire, you can see (because it's light) everyone (because it's a circle) and you see that they can also see you. We tell stories around fires. We cook food on fires. We bring fire to all our major ceremonial events. This is how community grows.

Since fire is a key ingredient in story and spectacle, death by fire is often a very public death. Burning at the stake was often a punishment for heresy, witchcraft, and other cultural crimes in which authorities wish to set a cultural expectation with the execution.

The myth of Icarus also shows an ancient warning about drawing too close to the fire and the dangers of hubris and brashness. He didn't even make it to the fiery sun, but his quest to do so killed him nonetheless.

Suicide by fire, much less common than execution, can also reach a much larger audience than many other forms of self-harm. Thích Quảng Đức brought global attention to conflicts between the South Vietnamese government and the Buddhist community in one of the most famous protests of the 20th Century. I doubt he would be remembered today had he died by hunger strike.

I don't know if or how the decedent at Element 11 planned his immolation, nor do I know what message he expected the community to take from the act. I suspect, though, he chose (perhaps subconsciously) this way to die in part because of its publicity; he knew this act would be known to the community. Had he wanted a private death he would have chosen a different method. There were surely inward reasons as well, whether it's fire's symbolism as purification, mystery, dynamism, emotion, passion, or some other way that flame spoke to him.

Fortunately, the community which was shocked by this act can also support each other in recovering. And that community has a larger, encircling community that can provide support for that network of support.

Footnote: Wikipedia's Icarus article has links to a few other cultures' myths of similar characters. Not to mention the cultural mythology of my teenage years, Pink Floyd, with this great live performance of Set the Controls for the Heart of the Sun with a gong on fire.
flwyd: (raven temple of moon)
Halloween is Burning Man for normal people.
  • Families put significant effort and money into decorating their home theme camp.
  • People get dressed up in sexy, creative, and unusual costumes.
  • They wander around town checking out theme camps, meeting strangers, and participating in the candy gift economy.
  • Raging parties happen on weeknights.
  • Some folks eat more stimulants and drink more booze than they should.
  • It's a spiritual experience for some, an artistic outlet for others, and a bunch just treat it as a visually stimulating excuse to party.
flwyd: (spencer hot springs feet)
Yesterday was a gorgeous early fall day. It would've been a perfect afternoon to hike the Anne U. White trail. Unfortunately, it's now the Anne U. White jumble of rocks and downed trees, made inaccessible by a river channel running through the parking lot and trailhead.

At 7 pm on Wednesday, September 11th, I was at work making a hilarious meme after three unusually rainy days in Boulder. Kelly asked me to pick up Chinese food on the way home, so I called and placed an order. Listening to Soelta Gael on KGNU, I heard an emergency broadcast system announcement that the rain clouds had just passed through Boulder and were expected to camp out above the Four Mile burn area and flash floods were expected. "Whoa," I said, "I'd better bring the Chinese home to Kelly before a bunch of debris washes up on the road."

With windshield wipers on the highest setting and a pleasant smell in the car, I arrived at the base of Wagonwheel Gap Rd to find two firefighters and a truck blocking the way. I asked if I could drive up to my house, which is just past Bow Mountain Dr. They didn't want to let me in, but suggested I drive through Pine Hills to Bow Mountain where another firefighter pair might let me cross the road. That route was significantly scarier, with hairpin turns in tight fog and deepening rivulets through the dirt road. I explained to the second set of firefighters that I lived in that house right there, on top of the steep driveway, and that I was bringing dinner to my girlfriend and wasn't planning to go anywhere else that night. They let me through; Kelly made a "my hero!" boast post on Facebook.

After dinner, I spent a bunch of time reading the Internet, then started writing some code, occasionally stepping out on the porch to admire the water running down the street, highlighted by firefighters' bright lights. At midnight, the elderly couple across the street, with the creek running strong along their back yard, drove past the firefighters and over the mountain to safety. At 1 am, the power in the neighborhood went out. "Oh my," I realized, "This experience might get a lot more exciting." Without sun, electricity or Internet, I did what anyone would do: went to bed.

At 5 am on Thursday we got a reverse 911 call announcing that electricity and gas would be shut off in our area for 24 hours. At 7:30 the sun, still filtered through clouds and rain, was bright enough to get us out of bed. I surveyed the canyon from our windows and porch, expecting to see a bunch of mud and sticks on the road, perhaps preventing me from getting to work that day. Instead I discovered that an entire 10-foot section of road at the bottom of our driveway had disappeared, replaced by a rushing river and a jumble of rocks. I realized then that this would be much more of an adventure (yet staying in place) than I'd expected.

I called my manager, thankful we have some corded phones that work without electricity. "I'm letting you know that there's no longer a road at the bottom of my driveway and we have no power." "Do you want someone to come get you?" "No, let me explain: there is no road to my house." "Oh, so you're working from home?" "No, there's no power." "Oh, okay. Stay safe and take care of what you need to do." "Yes, we will. Could you please find someone to cover my oncall shift? I will not be responding to any pages for a while."

We realized that no power means no water when you're in the mountains on a well. We filled a few gallon jugs with the water left in the purification system. I filled a few more from the water container left over from Burning Man. We took advantage of the clogged gutters and continuing downpour to fill four large tubs with water for all our non-potable needs, primarily toilet flushing. We took stock of our food situation: fine. Chinese leftovers, some meat in the fridge, a table full of pretzels, ginger snaps, spam packets, dried fruit, and other non-perishable deliciousness from festival season. Not to mention a cabinet full of provisions and a freezer with slowly thawing meat, chocolate, and Tofuti Cuties. Cooking wouldn't be too much of a hassle, thanks to two camp stoves and a box of propane canisters. Also thanks to impulse Burning Man purchases we were flush with flashlights, AA, and AAA batteries. We found the pack of C batteries I'd bought when I really wanted Ds, thankful for the mistake that let us turn on the radio. Thanks to KGNU, Boulder's community radio station and the National Weather Service, we had a pretty good idea of what was going on: flooding all over Boulder County, and plenty of folks worse off than we were.

Grabbing one of the 20 warming beers in the mini-fridge, I recalled a bumper sticker I'd seen on a computer at Burning Man: Maybe partying will help. It turns out to be a pretty good motto.

We called parents to assure them we were okay and would be staying put for a few days until the river goddess's visit was over. Our landlord called; we assured him the house was fine. He asked if we wanted him to bring us anything. No, people hiking in would just make the situation worse. We've got plenty of food and water and batteries and flashlights. What we'd like you to bring, our upstairs neighbor said, is three pepperoni pizzas. We're fine; we'll band together; we can survive like this for a week. We're Burners, we do this sort of thing for fun.

Over the next three days we had a fantastic, if somewhat damp, time. We met way more neighbors than we had in a year of living there. Potlucking with the folks on either side of our house, we ate steak, halibut, vegetables, omelets, and bacon. We drank beer, wine, and mead. We played Dominion, crazy eights, and a bunch of percussion instruments from my room. After a year of random access clothing storage on top of my dresser, I folded all my T-shirts and put them in drawers. I found my copies of The Hobbit and The Cyberiad that I'm in the middle of and had been looking for since July. We packed and repacked for hike-out evacuation in 21st Century style: two changes of socks, a pair of cargo pants, a warm hat, a Ziploc with cell phones, a tangle of cords, a grocery bag with my Mac Mini and another with my hard drive.

As Thursday and Friday unfolded, we'd saunter down the driveway every hour or two to ogle the river and marvel at how much less of a road we had. There was a car stuck against a tree in the middle of the creek, having floated 200 yards downstream after falling out of a garage. There was also an electric lawnmower at the edge of the paved precipice, arriving by some great measure of cosmic luck or perhaps an uphill neighbor with a sense of humor. As water receded the gas lines were revealed, naked as they ran up the canyon.

A year ago in September there was no water in Fourmile Canyon Creek; a hike up the Anne U. White trail revealed only a few strips of mud. We had a box packed for the cat in case we had to evacuate in a hurry from a fire. Flames were no longer a concern as the soil refused any new water, forcing rainfall to flow down the slope. The minor ditch on the north side of the street–downhill from a totally separate drainage basin than Fourmile Canyon Creek–had become a creek of its own, conjoining with the canyon's main water course several feet below the end of our driveway. I remarked that if we got three feet of snow we could get some fantastic air sledding down our driveway before crunching safely into powder padding the rocks. Yet again, maybe partying will help.

On Saturday morning, the rain took a break and the skies cleared. Dozens of folks were exploring the area, sharing speculative tips on how to hike out and where it might be safe to cross the river. Our upstairs neighbors rescued two cats from a nearby evacuated house. A few guys from the power company hiked in, surveyed the lines, and before noon we had power back on. This changed the fun survivalist game quite a bit. The food in the freezer wasn't in danger. (Cold) showers, dishes, and toilet flushing were possible. Nights would be more normal, less intimate. Without much warning, our upstairs neighbors took the slight rain reprise and crossed the river with three cats and a dog, meeting up with a friend on the other side and hiking up the the road on side of the canyon.

On Sunday the 15th, as we finished camp coffee, tea, and bacon, a UTV of firefighters came down the canyon. They told us more rain was expected through Monday and Tuesday. "That's disappointing," I said, "We were planning to hike out on Monday or Tuesday." The firefighters let us know that they had some trucks parked just up the road which could evacuate us now, and that they wouldn't be coming back in the next few days. Making sure our next door neighbors (who couldn't hike out) were coming, we grabbed our backpacks, put the cat in the carrier we'd prepared with comforts and treats, and gave a big thank you to the BLM firefighter from Rifle with a pickup who drove us out through Carriage Hills, skirting the chasm near the top of the road while a crew shored it up. It was a more abrupt departure than I'd expected so there wasn't much closure; as I looked down from Lee Hill a part of me wished I was still there, enjoying the flood, the camaraderie, and the lack of chaos and responsibility from the rest of the world. It had been a fleeting glimpse of how life was not so long ago in parts of the U.S., and still is today in many parts of the world.

Returning to the connected world, we discovered that several of our friends and relatives were a bit panicked about us and considered hiking in to see if we were okay. We found this a bit amusing, since we weren't panicked about our conditions at all. We were rather glad that nobody hiked in to save us, because we wouldn't have let them hike back out: the river was pretty dangerous and we've got a hammock you can sleep in, not to mention bacon. Furthermore, we were in a far better position to assess the hiking options: we know the curves of the canyon, we know exactly where we live, and we could turn around and retreat to safety if we got to a dead end. If you're concerned about your loved ones in a natural disaster, check the people finder resources and contact the folks organizing the emergency response. Volunteer firefighters who live in your friend's neighborhood will do a much better search and rescue (or search and say hello and leave in place) operation than a pal with a backpack with some trail mix and a gallon of water.

As flood evacuees, I think we're pretty lucky. My parents live in Boulder; they greeted us with open arms and an available master bedroom. Kelly's mom isn't far away either, and her house is a good base of operations for Kelly's weekend classes. The only damage to our house up the canyon was some water that seeped into the carpet in my bedroom; the only damaged objects were empty cardboard boxes. Although our cars are stuck at the top of a driveway which ends at a chasm, we're in one of the best cities in the country for alternative transportation. Before I got my bike situation sorted out I spent a few days walking to work, a 45-minute opportunity to catch up on podcasts from August. Our evacuation expenses have been fairly minimal, too: cat food and litter, a week's worth of clothes and other immediate needs at Target, a couple hundred bucks to my parents for food and gratitude for space.

Cruising around town in the two weeks since the flood has been a bit surreal. Boulder was just the focal point of a major natural disaster, yet after two days of sun there was less visible damage than after any heavy snowstorm in March. Boulder Creek was higher and faster than I've ever seen it before and you can tell where creeks and ditches had overflowed by the red- and orange-tinged dirt residue that's been swept to the sides of the streets. Open areas along waterways are now covered in this dusty umber, a subtle surprise out of the corner of your eye when you're used to seeing a field of wilting green. Several bike paths, which almost invariably follow the water, are still under an inch of gunk.

Yet these evaporated muddy fields and closed bike paths are all part of the plan. For several decades, Boulder city government has displayed an unwavering focus on flood mitigation, pushing back hard on people who wanted to build in 100- and 500-year flood plains. Along came a thousand-year flood and the city came out in fine shape. Fewer than 10 people died in the county and most of the buildings which washed away were in the mountains or in Lyons, which hasn't had as flood-focused a zoning process.

The flood response and rescue effort also highlighted effective government at its best. The National Weather Service provided fantastic and timely information. County and local officials started disaster response on Wednesday night and were (as far as I could tell, with the radio as my only connection to the world) on top of assessment, response, and communication. Volunteer firefighters hiked through the hills to check on folks and prioritize evacuations. The federal government got involved quickly, with National Guard helicopters flying rescue missions as soon as the skies were safe, FEMA organizing crisis response, responders from other jurisdictions joining the effort, and government-supported relief organizations Red Cross and United Way setting up shelters, staging areas, and providing other social infrastructure. Road crews were quickly working hard in tough conditions and Xcel has been on the ball restoring utilities.

Over two weeks, a crew established a replacement road for the sections of Wagonwheel Gap Road that had transformed into Wagonwheel Chasm. It's not paved, and it's one-lane in several sections. It also, unfortunately, leaves a large gap at the bottom of our driveway, so our cars are still camping out, wondering when partying will help. Our house is one of the few in the county without gas, though they expect to be ready to turn on the pilot light this week. It will be a week or so until our carpet can be replaced–you won't be surprised to learn that there's a backlog of carpet orders in Colorado. In the mean time, I'm boxing up all my books and moving all the ends and quite odds from my bedroom into the living room. It's a bit like moving, with the object placement rejiggering and the "I probably don't need most of what's in this box but I don't have time to go through it" sighs and the "where am I living" angst and the "I have other things I'd rather do with my spare time." Other things like hiking the trail. I'll miss out on so many great colors of leaves and crisp breaths of air. I'm glad I was present for this experience, though. It's rare in our modern world to see up close the dangerous power of water, the abysmal and how it handles the obstruction of a mountain keeping still. We got to watch local geography be made.
flwyd: (Shakespeare bust oval)
I saw A Midsummer Night's Dream at the Colorado Shakespeare Festival this weekend. If you're near Boulder, plan to see it in the next two weeks.

The Athenians were dressed in a 1920s style, which worked pretty well. The fairies had a very Burner asthetic, which worked excellently. In a departure from other productions I've seen, Puck had quite a bit of Grumpy Cat in him, sporting a dusty tuxedo coat, a beer belly, and a rotating collection of found hats. Totally a Burner.

The association got me thinking. Someone should record a Midsummer Night's Dream adaptation at Black Rock City. Lysander, Hermia, Demetrius, and Helena are camp mates, at Burning Man for the first time. Lysander and Hermia are dating; Demetrius and Helena hooked up a few times, but now Demetrius has the hots for Lysander's girl. Annoyed with his lechery, the two head out for a night on the playa, planning to have a personal wedding ceremony at the Temple at dawn. Helena mentions the two's plans and then chases after Demetrius as he tries to track the couple down in the blinking and burning wilds. The two have an ongoing argument about love and its unrequition as they stumble from bar to dance camp to bar in search of their camp mates.

Oberon, a Cacophanist leader and long-time Burner, sees Demetrius and Helena arguing up and down the Esplanade. He tells his pal Puck to grab some of their crazy aphrodisiac drug and covertly slip it to both his sometimes-lover sometimes-competitor Titania, another Cacophanist leader, and to the arguing virgins. "You'll know them by the Reality Camp outfits and lack of headlights or glowsticks." Puck finds Lysander and Hermia, also poorly lit and boringly dressed, sleeping on two couches, part of an art installation in deep playa.

Meanwhile, there's a bunch of white collar guys at their camp (also birgins) rehearsing for a performance in center camp later in the week. Most of them lack any theater experience and one of them is cutely uncomfortable with the idea of dressing in drag, even though, hey, it's Burning Man. Puck happens by unseen, having found Titania asleep on a cozy pillow-laden art car parked across the street. As Bottom, the drunk actor with the big ego, exits the stage and ducks behind the camp's shelter, Puck trips him into a food scraps tub and then rolls him into a pile of costumes. Smelling strongly of bacon grease and cheap beer and with butt costume piece stuck to his head, Bottom rushes back to the play. His camp mates get wigged out (maybe they were peaking) and split. Too drunk to be fully aware of his situation, Bottom tries to chase them, running straight into Titania's hammock. Titania falls immediately in lust, licking Bottom's neck where she can taste the bacon. Titania tells her friends to drive around the playa at her new beau's direction while the two of them cuddle in the most comfortable part of the car.

On the other side of the playa, Helena has lost track of Demetrius but then trips right over Lysander's couch. Under the drug's influence he starts trying to get in Helena's panties and the she gives chase. Hermia wakes up and can't find Lysander. She freaks out and runs off in a different direction. She runs into Demetrius, who got distracted by a dance party where Oberon and Puck happen to be hanging out. She starts accusing Demetrius of doing something terrible to her boyfriend. They get in another tiff and she storms off toward the other side of city. Demetrius starts to give chase, followed by Oberon on bicycle, but gets tired and crashes out on a bench by the Man. Oberon sees Helena and Lysander approach and slips Demetrius an aphrodisiac dose. Upon hearing "Whoa, it's Demetrius" from his friends, he wakes up and immediately starts a testosterone battle. Puck has meanwhile found Hermia and said "I think the guy you were with earlier tonight is over at the Man." She shows up, is insulted by the guys who were trying to get it on with her mere hours before, and hilarious drama ensues. The guys insist they take it to the Thunderdome, but get distracted by Puck with a really cool blinking light and spooky sound setup and get drawn to a hammock camp in the city where they pass out and Puck slips Lysander a hangover remedy.

Oberon spots Titania's art car and follows it by bike for a while, grinning widely. When they stop for a nap, Oberon slips a hangover remedy to Titania. She wakes up, totally embarrassed that she's been making out with a foam ass and wondering why her clothes smell like bacon. (She's a vegan.) Oberon explains the prank, Titania admits he got her good and the two make up. They take Bottom back to their camp and wipe him down with baby wipes, then set him on a couch on an esplanade.

Dawn breaks and the birgin campers find themselves cuddled in hammocks and madly in love. They decide to do tandem weddings at the Temple later that day. Bottom wakes up with a head full of crazy dreams and wanders to the Temple to journal and process. As the campers are getting ready for their weddings, he hears them mention that they want to see this play at Center Camp they read about in the What Where When. Remembering their theatrical plans, Bottom hops a community bike and dashes back to camp. His friends are worried and sad that they won't have their stage opportunity when Bottom busts in and stirs everyone up. They put on a production that would be panned in any normal theater but which is ridiculous enough to amuse everyone in Center Camp.

The end.
flwyd: (Trevor over shoulder double face)
Talk about what you know. Demonstrate who you are.
flwyd: (Trevor shadow self portrait)
I've posted my good photos from this summer to Picasa (or Google+ if you prefer that interface). Based on a conversation on a Google+ post a few weeks ago, I've adopted the following face-tagging policy:
Feel free to tag yourself in my photos. Please don't tag other people unless you know they're okay with it. If you see someone you recognize in a photo and don't know if they've seen it, send them a link.

2011 Winter and Spring
2011 Beltania
2011 Apogaea - Illuminate
2011 Dragonfest
2011 Burning Man
2011 Summer Misc
flwyd: (sun mass incandescant gas)
I finished my ranger email art project at a quarter to ten last night.
I finished packing clothes, food, and camping gear at half past midnight.
I finished loading the car at 1:30 AM.
It's now almost noon and we're just about ready to hit the road, meaning we should arrive at the campground near Diamond Hot Springs at a reasonable evening hour.
And hey, I've been getting practice not getting tons of sleep :-)

If you need to get in touch with me in the next week, send correspondence to
Ranger Stonebeard
Ranger Outpost Berlin
3 o'clock and C
Black Rock City, NV 89412

Even if you aren't going to be covered in dust all week, I hope you have a fantastic time.
flwyd: (playa surface)
So it's a week before I'm driving to Burning Man and I have a gift ticket I need to pass on. The various folks I was going to gift it to don't need it for one reason or another. I don't want it to go to waste, so I'm spreading the word more broadly, but I'm also trying to avoid a total deluge of email, so don't go posting this to every BM list in the world.

I'd like the recipient of this gift ticket to meet all of the following criteria:
* Able to go to Burning Man (on this short notice). And if your plans fall through, you must gift this ticket to someone who can go. "Don't sell a ticket for more than you paid for it" is a community value I want to maintain.

* Wouldn't be able to make it without a gift ticket. That is, "I procrastinated for four months and didn't buy a ticket when they were $360" isn't a good reason.

* Has something to gift. And I don't mean trinket necklaces. What I want to know is: Why will Black Rock City be a better place with you there? How will you be gifting your time and energy?


Some criteria that are nice, but not mandatory:
* A member of the Colorado community. With the event selling out this year (and quite possibly in the future), I'd like to help build community in my neck of the woods. Also, if I can meet up with you in Boulder, the ticket can't get lost in the mail.

* Rites of Passage tie in. Is this year's theme particularly special to you? Did you just go through a rite of passage? Do you need to? Will this year's Temple burn be particularly meaningful for you?


If you'd like to receive this gift, answer these questions in the comments or email me at tstone at trevorstone dot org. Unless there are extenuating circumstances, don't ask for a ticket for a friend: share this with them and let them answer the questions in their own words. Please share this directly with people who may be interested, but don't plaster it all over the Internet -- I have things I want to do this weekend besides read email. I plan to pick a recipient by Sunday night so I can mail the ticket on Monday if need be.
flwyd: (pensive goat)
Spinning LightsI've been rather busy this year, so I haven't devoted much time to maintaining my digital life. (Ironically, I've been working all year on a tool to help people manage their data in the cloud.) But since most folks spend the week around Thanksgiving looking after their offline affairs, I've had plenty of low-distraction time to upload photos. I also discovered a bunch of files sitting around on my hard drive which I didn't need, so I've got more space to fit more photos :-)

Bliss Dance at Burning ManSummer 2010 featuring, among others,
I gave Burning Man 2010 its own album.

Metaphoto with glass sphereI've taken a lot fewer photos this year than in years past. Maybe I've spent more time fully engaged in activity rather than trying to capture it. But a significant reason is that my SLR is pretty bulky to carry around all the time, especially now that a bicycle is my main mode of transport. So I bought a compact camera (a Panasonic Lumix DMC-ZS5 if you're curious) yesterday. The proximate motivation was wanting to take some pictures in New York City next week without carrying a camera bag everywhere I go. But the ultimate motivation is to have a camera on me at all times so I can restore my "Hey, this is a great sunset" tendencies.
flwyd: (sun mass incandescant gas)
Ignite Boulder is coming on Wednesday, December 8th. I proposed a talk, "Sorrow, Joy and Release: The Temple at Burning Man," and you can vote for it and other sparks that sound interesting. My description: Every year, a group of artists build a beautiful monument; tens of thousands of people contribute memories and wishes; then the whole thing is set aflame. What's the point, and what can we learn from it?

Ignite is the public speaking cure to the PowerPoint curse. Each presenter has 20 slides that advance every 15 seconds, whether they're ready or not. The best presenters can pack a lot of humor, insight, education, and inspiration in five minutes. Boulder is the largest Ignite in the world, and has sold out the Boulder Theater and Chautauqua Auditorium for the last year. If you haven't been to an Ignite, join the fun in Boulder or at an event near you!
flwyd: (spiral staircase to heaven)
Two hours ago I got back to Boulder from Burning Man. There's a lot to be said about the past week and a half, but this is not the occasion to say most of it.

Every year at Burning Man, a crew builds a large wooden temple. The attendees then write messages on the temple, attach offerings to its nooks and crannies, and have a good cry inside. On Sunday night of the event, the temple is burned as thousands of people look on in near silence, appreciating the symbolic release of all the words, objects, and memories they placed there. The majority focus on death, but many people seek release from old relationships and personal hardships, while others add messages of philosophy and joy.

I liked a lot about the temple's design this year, but I didn't connect as strongly with the messages people left as I have in years past. Perhaps that's because I wasn't yet ready to release: the important death to me had not yet come.

Our old family friend Clover has been in the hospital and hospice for the last few weeks. We all knew his days were numbered, but when I called before leaving cell phone reception behind as I crossed the desert, he was doing well. I'd hoped to see him one last time when I got back, to give him a send-off in person. Sadly, Clover passed on Monday, around the time I turned from 447, Black Rock City's highway, on to I-80 and the default world.

Clover liked to do things in his own way and at his own pace, and there will be lots of time to honor our good friend Big Red. My dad, who shared so much with Clover in the last three decades, will be helping organize a memorial, perhaps at Halloween. I'm sure we'll be visiting our cabin soon, a place Clover lived in and looked after with his skilled woodsman ways. Perhaps we'll save a plate for him at Pie Night in November with a slice of some of the community's tastiest pies. And I've got a whole year to come up with a tribute to be burned at the temple in 2011.

I'll sure miss this old quiet, steady, dry, sharp guy. I'm glad I had the chance to grow up around him. And I'm glad I got to share my last words with him in the hospital, a moment containing both hope and acceptance.

Playa Bound

Saturday, August 28th, 2010 12:09 pm
flwyd: (playa surface)
My stuff is all in the car. My bike is secured on top. Just need to pick up some fruit, then pick up Zane, unpack the car, repack it sensibly with both our stuff, and hit the road. The goal is to spend tonight at Diamond Hot Spring near Spanish Fork, UT, tomorrow night at Spencer Hot Spring near Austin, NV, and be at Burning Man around midday Monday. Hooray!

We tested out a minimal shade structure from borrowed parts last night. The shade cloth was still covered in playa dust. In the intervening year I think I'd romanticized it a little. It still smells interesting, but it's annoying to breathe in. It also got all over my hat :-/

If you need to get in touch with me, send an email (or track me down at 8:30 and Guangzhou or Ranger HQ). I'll spend much of the latter half of next week unwinding and catching up, so I'll get back to you then. I'm planning to catch up on past LJ entries too, but if you think there's something I really ought to know, bring it to my attention.
flwyd: (Vigelandsparken circle man)
This shot on The Wedge is one of my favorite pictures from burning man because it captures, better than most, the energy and immediacy of the moment as well as the creative repurposing of everyday objects. NSFW if your work is nipplephobic.
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